coming from a broken heart.

⇨February 18, 2010

I'm speechless right now, I just wanna cry in bed and never wake up. I realized what I had truely lost and I can't take that back. I just can't believe it happened all so fast. Whatever happened to our promises? Whatever happened to those last night phone calls? I miss all those. I miss you. I miss everything. The hardest thing to do is to let go of someone then then to actually trying to have them. Cause when you have them, no worries. He's yours right? But when you let go of someone, you have past memories with the person. You have a history with them now. No letting go, especially when you were really into them. I'm not gonna say I was in love, because really I'm still a teen. And I really don't know what love is. I was just really into him.. People say they are in love, but you never know when it will be all crashing down. One minute you'll be all happy, the next it's gone. Tears, sadness. That goes to show you, hold on tight to what you really want. To that one person. To the things you love.

I honestly can't say i'm over you, because everyone knows that I'm not.
I honestly can't get over you, because it's hard to get over a person that you really were into and you turn around it's all gone.
I honestly can't forget you, because I have memories with you, good AND bad and plus, your birthday buddy is my brother.

Being a teen is to experience all these. When I told my mother about my situation, she just said it's puppy love. It's not true love. I agree with her. I think we're too young to be IN love. Can anyone honestly answer the question, what IS love? I don't think no one around my age would know. Only those who are married will, just my opinion.

I can't express how I feel right now but with tears. Tears is all that comes to me, writing this, saying it, looking at our memories. Just tears. I just wanna say to hold down that one person. Don't let anything or anyone over come between you guys. Distance, time, people, emotions, anything. Don't let anyone come to between. If you really wanna hold on to them, then do it. Don't say it. But don't be to "sprung" about it. Cause like I sad, you never know when it'll be gone. You'll get hurt more, like I did. I never knew it was coming, it just died, it just happened. I logged on, boom! relationship status changed, tears flowed my eyes.

I wanted to make this just one blog, last but not least. Just take care of him, treat him right, don't let go. You'll regret the day that you do..

yours truely, <3