pain in the chest

⇨October 8, 2009

hey bloggers, I haven't made a new post in a while but I really don't have the time for anything or anyone anymore. I've been busy with student council, cross country and especially basketball. My coach is training us like were in freaken oba, but whatever I don't care. I don't like playing with my school team, I just go for the fun of it, lol. School's been really confusing for me, well the school work. So far, I think I'm gonna fail history, and espeically religion :S civics I'm not sure of it yet, hopefully not and gym, soft, I'm passing that with an A, bombs. I really wanted to post up how I've been lately and how I've been feeling but I just don't have the time to. RIght now I'm at school, In civics so I might as well just post whatever's on my mind. At this moment, I really want to say that I MISS YOU alot. Like I can't believe it ended like this, I can't believe we just stopped talking like that, without even an explaination. I really did not want to end like this, hopefully you don't hate me, hopefully we can get back on track and even though we can't be back to the way things were, even though I wish we were. It was my fault, I really am sorry. I wish I had more time to come and visit, I wish you had the time to call me often. I just wish things could've worked out because I thought we had something special and I thought that we could've kept it long but I guess not. Have you moved on already? Or have you just forgotten about me? Or you just hate me? I really wish the answer is that you were just too busy, I really hope that's the reason. But I really miss you like mad <3 If you see this, can you please call me one night just to say hi? Cause I really miss talking to you, I still have that SAME feeling I had when we were still talking but I'm not sure if you do, I doubt it but I wish you did have the same feelings. If anything, I'm sorry. I just wanna say, I miss you alot. Bye BH. Oh yeah, bye blogggers. Nothing else to read here..