'bout to break down..

⇨September 14, 2009

fuckmylife, shitass. I'm so bust right now from ball, like honestly. This stupid coach is making us run as if were trying out for the fucking cross country team, well I actually am lol. But whatever, same shit. Today must be my lucky day, well somewhat. I found 5 bucks on the floor, almost lost my metro pass cause I dropped it and lucky enough that some man spotted it and told me I had dropped something. Ate bare foood, which filled me up, uh .. I ended up using the computer but someone wasn't online so whatever, who fucking cares. Like honestly, Idk what's up with me. I've been moody about this whole shit right now and what not. "Don't say shit, and then you don't end up doing it" fuck, maybe I'm just over reacting but whatever. Remember the songs that I told you reminded me of you because of the lyrics? Take this in, I was listening to my ipod in class, listening to those songs. And all of a sudden, I started tearing. For the rest of the day, I was so quiet, which is very unusual of me and everyone was asking me what was wrong, but I really don't know. Tonight, I don't feel like going on the computer, I just want to lie in bed and just think and tune out. I know I will turn out tonight breaking down and crying while listening to those songs, I really don't know what's up. Trust me, Its not your fault, It's just me. I'm really really really really stupid right now fuck. I guess I'll just leave it where it's at, but I know for a fact that I will break down and cry tonight.

ps, ily&imy <3